Search for peace!

Hmm, feeling kind of down for a whole load of reasons. Is it that I'm not doing enough for myself, am I not working hard enough, am I not making others happy, health problems or basically pressure from business commitments?

Let's face it, I'm running down the clock towards the far side of the 30s and I've not actually done something that I can be proud off. Mainly towards my career.

The welcome & peaceful face of death sometimes seems really alluring. Wouldn't there be just peace at the end of the light? No more worries, promises, deadlines, ailments and whatever?!
Of course, not the first time, its been considered. Its sometimes considered the coward way out, but I don't consider myself as a coward. Or am I? I just want to go to sleep without worrying about something and then waking up to start all over again. Let it go, just let it go! And let somebody else do all the worrying now!